Wedding maddness

So I have my binder I have my invitation in the mail. I have my dress and shoes. Location and food will be ordered as soon as I have a final head count. Thanks to the assistance of many: We got the prefered location courtesy of Tony's mom and her parents; We got the photographer courtesy of Kristin; The judge courtesy of my boss; Favors and side dishes courtesy of my aunt Mary; Cake courtesy of miss Cam and her lovely mother April; Oh yes and the dress and shoes were courtesy of my mother; My ring is the ring my grandparents used for their last anniversary together before the passing of my grandfather; His mom is getting his tux.

I have the flowers to make my bouquet apparently gardenia are not the most ideal flower for summer, lol. I will be getting Tony's ring this month. So lets see what else. . . we will need drinks, (ie. soda and water) aside from the fact that Tony will only be 20 and does not like to drink anyways, we can not have alcohol at the lake. Since it will be a Friday afternoon I am hoping people know not to dress up. The wedding and reception is going to be outside this is granite bay and it will be JULY which means hot, hot and more hot!

So yeah I still feel like I am losing my ind and missing something, but I hear that comes with the territory. I have 45 more days left and it seems too far and yet not enough time to make sure I remember everything. I need to get the undergarments for my dress and get it hemmed, so proud that is the only alteration I need, lol. I have tried to make checklists but can not seem to think long enough to make it through them, lol.

I guess when you have an event like this you seem to lose your mind. We did not save for this and have been scrambling to make ends met to have something nice but not to over the top. The last big thing we need to purchase is the honeymoon. We are only going to Monterey for the weekend so it is not like a huge expense but still I always seem to fret over spending a large amount of money, lol. Must be the cheap Portugee in me.

I can not think straight even long enough to finish this spastic rant. But there is one thing I do know for sure. He is my best friend, my lover, my partner. And marring him is the best thing in the world. I was born to be his wife and someday mother of his children. Everyday he saves my life because, without him I was lost and with him I am home.