
But I am trying to not get too caught up in the pressures to be the perfect bride. I am already self conscious about my weight. I am trying to get my body where I want it and ready for summer. I am determined to like myself in a swim suite this year. I am getting off topic, there are just so many little things to plan and do and so much $$$$$$$$$$. I want the few essential things: a dress I love, a photographer to capture the day, family there if they can make it (the one thing we have decided is we want a destination wedding, again may of 2010 is a long way away could change) a cake, and a spectacular honeymoon! But where do you go what do you do it is a wedding the only one I ever want to have. I have so many ideas and need to channel them somehow maybe I will keep a journal of ideas then when the date gets closer I can put things into action. Gheez I am a Virgo so bad I am about to go Monica (from friends) and make a wedding binder! lol. Well I am sure it will all work out just fine but I cannot wait until plans are made and we have things in action I will be able to breathe easier. I am trying not to be too anal about everything but I want things a certain way, it might be bad but I am even going to make my bouquet. I have made three for others a wedding so I am not lost on what to do but I need to now chose my own flowers and for some reason that seems very difficult. To be honest none of that should matter since I am going to marry the man of my dreams and as long as it is he and I at the end of the day I could not ask for more. Ok venting is officially done. Btw to those married ladies any advise on what to do to help with the wedding planning stressors???.