Thursday, March 11, 2010

Home alone

My husband has the chance to change what part of the company he works for. A quick explanation on what currently does is, he works for a company as an ILS (Independent Living Services) Facilitator they teach life skills to adults that have developmental disabilities. He teaches things like money management, cooking, hygiene, housekeeping, etc. Up until the recent cut backs it paid really well and allowed him to make his own hours. Due to the government cutbacks he has lost several of the consumers he used to train since they lost hours or were cut from the program. There is another part of the company that has grown a great deal in the last year. SLS (Supportive Living Services) is an at home care where you are with the consumer for a minimum of 8 hours. He is opting to work a 60 hour shift. So he would be gone for three days and two nights. They do some of the same things and ILS facilitator does but just a little different depending on what consumer he gets he may do something as simple as keep the company and help them cook and clean. Or is he ends up with a consumer that requires more medical or hygiene needs such as bathing and or other various chores.

The money on the SLS side is  much better and would allow him to be gone for only three days a week and have four days off. This works out with the baby since I will be returning to work full time after my maternity leave. Tony will be the stay at home daddy Mon -Thurs and Friday I only work until 1:30 not sure exactly what I will do those days but I will figure it out before it is too late.

Now the hard part is the home alone part, remember that part about three days gone, that is not so bad it is the two nights gone. We have not spent more than one night away from each other since we began living together in November of 2008. The only night we were separated was the night before our wedding, which was not our idea by the way. I know it seems childish and little of me to complain about two nights, however he is not just my husband but my best friend and protector. I feel safe and at peace with him, I hate it when he goes to the gym to late at night and I am home alone. I have three doggies to keep me safe but they are no where near the comfort of my husband. I sit here now and think me, me, me. It just hit me what about him I know he is not excited about being gone from me or soon our new baby. This is what he is doing to make more money for our family. We have talked about careers for him in police work, fire fighting and even the military. I know you are thinking if you cant handle three days you would die as a military wife, right? Which is why we only ever talked about those choices. Tony is not a desk job kind of guy I knew that when I married him so to make enough money to allow me to one day be able to stay home with baby #2 then only work part time when both kids are in school he needs to have a really good paying job. With not plans for either of us to return to school career choices are limited.

Rambling on and on and not getting to the point as usual. Growing pain for both of us as we move on together in our marrired life. We will be celebrating our one year wedding anniversary in July on the 17th, welcoming our first child on or about August 1st then hit two years of being together on August 18th. We are still very new as a couple and will be even more new as parents. I know we will make it through anything and everything together even a few tears for a few nights apart. We are tough and our love is strong, so fingers crossed I dont shed too many tears to make my husband feel bad about doing what needs to be done. At the very least this will make our family time together that much more special.

7 comments:

christina said...

My husband is gone this week, so I know how you feel! We've not been away from each other this long in a while. His work sent him away for a week for training. It's definitely not fun being pregnant and alone! We're due with our first in August as well. I saw your post on BabyCenter.com! I thought I would comment here, since it's more personal. I never feel like people comment on my blog enough! You can visit mine, if you'd like to, www.thestainbrooks.com. I'll keep you bookmarked!

Tony and Paulene said...

Thank you so much. I feel the same way no one ever seems to comment on mine but not that many people follow mine, lol. I seem to follow to many to read but I follow anyone that comments on mine. I have been a very needy pregnant girl. I love the networking that all these sights like baby center and other allow. Makes you feel less alone during your pregnancy because chances are there is someone somewhere going through what you are. Great to meet you and come back and visit.

christina said...

Yeah, definitely good sites for networking. I'm not really clicking with anyone, but I don't really participate as much as a should! I'm a bit of a shut in. We started our blog for our family and friends. They all seemed really interested in everything we were putting on facebook and we were getting lots of comments--so we decided to centralize it on a blog. Now? No comments. I think social networking sites make it too easy for people to be lazy! So yeah, I will comment for you as much as possible! Also, the password for my blog is: kcblog. I keep forgetting to give it to people. It's mostly to protect baby from the people in this town--not internet people as sad as that might be!

christina said...

Oh! Also, congrats on your little boy! I can't believe how soon everyone is getting to find out their gender! We don't find out until 22 weeks! I feel like we'll be the last to find out on babycenter!

Tony and Paulene said...

I guess I should feel better a bunch of my friends that are pregnant found out at 16 weeks I was going nutty waiting for 20 weeks. Well almost there and it will be great to know for sure. I thought it would make me less anxious but I just became a little bit more after we found out. I think what my mother used to say about how it was a mothers prerogative to worry, did not mean it started at birth. I think it starts the moment that test says yes. I have not really clicked with a lot of people I have one friend on there at I have had since before I was pregnant. I am the no comment thing I get because I think it does let people see but they never seem to say anything until they are with you. Also it seems the usually give out their 2 cents on what they don't like more than what they do.

christina said...

I 100% agree with the worry thing! I worry all of the time. I'm constantly praying about this baby. My family has a history of a LOT of mental illness, and I'm scared to death that my baby is going to have problems. Luckily, of my family, I'm the only one who made it through without anything, but I'm terrified. My family is scary! I just hope I don't have a baby that takes after them. I want my husband, myself, and my baby to be our own unit and not controlled by my family or their pasts or minds or illnesses. I worry too much! I just need to clear my mind and allow this child to come out perfect and take it day by day!

Tony and Paulene said...

Isn't that so much easier said than done though?? lol. I tell myself to try not to worry, but at times I find i do not listen very well. Well here we are one day at a time and half way there hopefully this last half will pass quickly.